35 years of Blessings and Miracles


First I want to give THANKS to GOD and the Angels for allowing me to reach 35 years in life. So many souls do not make it whether by choice or by events that cause their existence to be cut short. I am very grateful for each breath I take.

Every birthday that comes around I try to feel out what that the events and time are going to be like. I envision my happiness and try to see an order of events that would make my energy happy. I originally had planned to go to key west for the weekend just to relax and be around family and friends. To be around the people I love for my birthday is what makes my soul happy. This and the beach is perfect in my eyes.

After trying to organize a few things, everyone could not be at this place. Instead of getting upset of my own expectations, I choose to take my birthday to where it really matters, my heart. I decided to take the love of my life and spend time with my best friend, his wife and their two awesome children in St Petersburg. My best friend opened his house and energy to us and helped make my birthday such a memorable experience for my soul.

Heading over to St. Petersburg we had plans to go on a sunset cruise, the famous beaches, fishing, Dali museum, dinners, parks, bbq and everything in between. This was also the first time my soulmate was meeting my best friend and his family. I knew everything would work out with their energies getting along but did not expect all the miracles that would follow. I was truly blown away from the love that was felt and shared over the weekend!

Once we arrived we never left. The woman went on the balcony and shared their energy while my best friend and I caught up. We watched two women who never met come together at first for their men but then connected in such a soulful way like they have known each other for years. We sat back and enjoyed a glass of wine while looking at our beautiful woman while the sun was setting. We had the kids playing along the side of us and we both counted our blessings of how truly lucky our souls were to be in that moment of time.

The entire weekend was such a blessing. We had such a great soulful time that we never left the house. Our energies together whether we talked, played games, prayed, ate, hugged the kids, hugged each other, everything felt as perfect as it sounds. We did not need to go anywhere to give us the joyous feelings. We did not need anything to make us see how blessed we were. Every meal we all held hands in a circle and prayed to GOD. We THANKED him and all the angels around us for allowing us to come together and experience the love that we were all feeling. You can not find this love at the museum or a park but within your soul.

The children calling us Uncle Fam and Auntie Iris touched our hearts. Our best friends telling us how much they love and appreciate us touched our souls. These are the bonds that are never forgotten. This weekend was also the first time my soulmate and I first told each other that we loved each other. We were both waiting for the right moment to say it even though we have felt it since the beginning. That moment came to us and that moment will never be forgotten.

As we said our goodbyes, Madison, the baby girl who is such a bright light started crying. After her daddy confirmed that we were not saying goodbye, that we were saying see you soon, made the sadness turn into happiness. We felt honored to touch a soul with love to cause that bond.

My love and I reflected on the weekend and we had smiles the entire way home. We held hands and our bond grew even more. Our love for each other is so strong even though the “time” is fairly new but the connection has always been there. We had to both go through tough life experiences in order to be ready for each other. We had to learn how to appreciate each other before we finally met so we both can have that best friend soulful love connection that could be cherished and maintained throughout our life together. I am confident because I know who she is to me. I have been telling her since the beginning and every moment we are together reaffirms my words. I am truly blessed and honored to have this beautiful soul in my life!! WOW…. all this and my birthday is not even here yet. My birthday is the following day and I already felt the best gifts that I ever could have imagined.

June 10th is here and my love had a whole day planned for me that I never imagined. After an awesome breakfast with my father and my love, she took me to a famous winery for a wine tasting. We talked with ease like we have been married for 20 years. To have peace and comfortableness in a bond is a gift and blessing. Amongst all the other gifts she still had one more. My baby took me on a romantic airplane ride along the east coast to West Palm Beach. We held hands and flew through the air like we were angels gliding over the ocean. We prayed and gave THANKS for the moment and all the moments leading up to us being together. A small part of me wanted to keep flying because it was such a perfect moment but the bigger angelic part said then you will be missing out on all the bigger blessings in life. Enjoy, keep the memory in your heart and look forward to all the other blessings that are already laid out for you both.

We ended the night with some champagne, reflection and huge signs from our angels which was the spiritual birthday gift given to both of us on a silver platter.

The vibrations that my soul and energy has felt over the last 4 days have been nothing short of divinely angelic love. My soul is in heaven as my body feels the connection here. The best part is that I know this is just the beginning of my life but as much as I look forward to it, I am here now. I appreciate each breath and moment right now. I hug, I kiss, I say I LOVE YOU, I share, I create. I am me and in me is the love and light that we all share. I am in tune with this light and love and it gets stronger daily.

We all have to go through life training. We will always learn through our experiences and life events. It is up to you whether you look at life as poor me or as the stronger soul who learned what to do and what not to do. It is up to you whether you hate from your experiences or love and appreciate your todays. My birthday cake says Happy Birthday Everyone. Today is everyones day not just mine. Today is the day I celebrate everyone in my life. THANK YOU GOD, THANK YOU ANGELS, THANK YOU to all the beautiful souls that surround my existence. Namaste.

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Destiny changes every second



GOD sent the Angels here to help everyone one of us. We all have at least 7 guardian Angels, each one being in charge of a chapter in your life. They are helping you achieve your destined path in life whatever that may be. Some people need “bad” experiences in order to reach their destiny while others may be blessed with a great life and still achieve their destiny. We go through our own experiences to make us who we are today but the path of destiny that is given is always altered some how some way. This is from free choice and will of man, our greatest gift. Just because we are destined to achieve certain experiences and gifts in our life does not mean it is guaranteed.

If I am destined to be president of the USA but I choose to drink and drive and hurt someone else, then I have altered destiny. Sometimes our mistakes are forgiven depending on the level of our destined path and sometimes not. There are jails full of murders who have ruined their lives from a choice. They not only ruined their destiny but also the soul who they took the life from.

Another example of destiny being altered is in love. I believe we have many soul mates in our lifetime depending on the lessons that our souls need to experience. Sometimes we feel that someone is our soul mate and maybe they are but it takes two to make it work. If the other person chooses a different path then you even though you are soul mates, destiny is altered once again by a choice. Furthermore, if you are married to your soul mate and life is wonderful but then something tragic happens, destiny is altered. We all have heard stories about spouses loosing another from the war.

This is where the angels really come into play with our lives. They are here to help us achieve our destined path and that means adapting to the changes made by our choices whether good, bad or indifferent. One of the greatest gifts the angels help us with is timing, also known as Divine timing. When our destiny is altered, they do their best to help guide our timing to realign our destiny. It is almost like an alignment on our car. If it is not fixed then you will be buying tires really soon or have to deal with flats and time delays from that. They help fix the car so we can drive as smoothly as possible even though we could hit a pothole at any time or be forced into one by another driver.

Regardless of what happens in our lives, have faith that GOD has the best workers for your soul trying to make your destined path happen. Have faith and gratitude in GOD for giving us our angels and giving us his unconditional love. GOD loves every soul he made. He may be disappointed in our choices sometimes because we know better but that will never affect his love and dedication to us. GOD is the best parent we all share and will always try to love us to our destiny, we just have to have faith in ourselves and his guidance.

I have made mistakes in my life and altered my destiny many times by simple choices. But I have learned from my mistakes so I will not alter it any more. We all make mistakes but it is the wise soul who learns from the experience. I am a student of life and will always be learning lessons to make my soul the best version it can be. There is no one in history who has ever perfected life. All we can do is act from our heart, speak with love and share what we have with the ones who need it the most. When in doubt, ask yourself how GOD and the angels would respond. Every right answer has that energy in it.



Jackie Robinson #42


I just saw the movie “42” about Jackie Robinson and how he was the first afro-american to join major league baseball as we know it today. The story was filled with many emotions. Watching a dedicated soul overcome all the challenges he faced stirred some frustrating emotions. I could feel the prejudice and hatred at that time. I guess we can time travel. But I traveled to an outside place looking in. To see an energy of one soul lash out and attack just because of skin color is watching negativity work its magic.

Growing up in the projects of Philadelphia, it was hard for me to be prejudice. The majority of my friends were afro-american. How could I dislike someone strictly for the color of the skin? I related with racism at an early age. Coming from the projects, there are many stereotypes but I always chose not to have any negativity towards a race or culture. This movie made me feel the true evil within racism. To feel this emotion made me feel angry and frustrated but that is where it comes from so I had to recognize that. You can not fall in the same trap that feeds negativity. If you allow it to effect you emotionally then you are allowing it to win.

I can never feel what it is like to be afro-american especially in those days. I can only see the negativity and focus my energy to work in the opposite direction. I can only shift my love to places where education and truth will always win over hatred. There will always be prejudice and racism in this world. But look how far we have become as a nation and a world. It was not that long ago since slavery and less then 50 years that afro-americans had to use seperate bathrooms and water fountains amongst many other rules that were supported by the government.

Segregation is only for people who truly do not know GOD. They only know their negative experiences. The way they chose to believe has now warped there loving and logical thought process. If we were all blind how could we have hatred for a skin color. We would be forced then to judge by actions. Having hatred on something you can not see or know represents that negative space within their soul. It is easy to fill your heart and soul with stereo types and negativity. It takes courage, love and GOD to know and follow the truth. When you truly know your GOD, no matter what name you call him, you will see the universal energy we all share, love.

Everyone is an individual. Only GOD judges. The true work of GOD is to love everyone regardless of color, faith and action. To see the light of GOD in every soul is acting in GOD’s love. If you had children, you would not want them to hate each other but only to love and help one another. That is GOD’s message also. The true foundation of any religion is love because GOD is LOVE.

We have come a long way in racism. In the 1940’s, no one would ever believe there would be an afro-american president today. Society is changing because the era is changing. All the people living today that are older then 55 have experienced some type prejudice on a larger scale. Some of this population have the core foundation of hatred that they experienced. Some of these souls are in government and elevated positions. As time goes on, these souls will leave and new souls will evolve to these positions constantly changing our world for the better with more love and acceptance.

Today we see gay marriage and more interracial children. Love is being accepted on a wider scale and in that love comes change. We can all help the change by raising our children with the love value and not the hatred. We can help change to speak up when someone says something racial. Have courage for GOD’s children. GOD sent the angels here to help us to our destined paths in life. We can help that process by sharing and caring unconditionally.

I love all faiths, cultures, races and life itself. Speak love with every word. Look at every soul and not their shell. Love the energy of another regardless of their deeds. The easiest way to get to this wonderful place is to love yourself and GOD. The more you love the more you will see. The more you will feel whats right in your heart.






Maxwell Garret- a legend and hero- 4/18/17- 4/10/13


I met Maxwell (Mac) from teaching class in one of my community centers. His loving wife Diana was a student who I immediately gravitated to. She had such warmth and loving energy that you could not help but give her a hug. Diana asked if I would come to the house to see her husband Mac because he had to use a wheel chair most of the time and was difficult to get to class. Without hesitation I accepted and went an hour before our class started the following week.

First time I saw Mac I experienced such awesome light, warmth and love. I felt this feeling of a strong leader but with a caring heart who was only trying to help guide you to your best possible self. I taught Mac the beginning movements of tai chi and also massaged his knees and shoulders, injuries from the war. Every week for over 3 years I would work on Mac and teach him tai chi but what he taught me far exceeds anything that I shared with him. During our relationship, there was never any money exchange. I did not charge them for my time instead was happy and grateful GOD placed these wonderful angels into my life.

Besides class sessions, there was more to our relationship. We would go out to eat together and even go to the Morikomi museum. Our relationship was a loving grandparent bond. I immediately felt Mac’s and Diana’s love for me and knew it was a gift to cherish and learn from.

We would always share our miracle stories and the life lessons.The insights I learned from both of them are priceless. The biggest lesson that they both taught me was love. Not just any love but true, unconditional, you are my soulmate for life type of love and what it takes to maintain it. I never saw my grandparents together. I never experienced how love is later in life. They were my perfect example and standard.
In all of our time together, I would always see kissing. Always hear words of “I love you” and “sweetie”. Always see touching of the arm or a quick hug. Being married for 70 years and they still express their love for each other. Mac knew that strength did not come from arguing but saying “yes dear”. He was brilliant and his mind always sharp. Even at 95 he was sending me emails and using the computer everyday.
Mac would always say exactly what you needed to hear. He made you not think of the issue at hand but how it can apply to other areas of your life and what you learned from it. There are many lessons that I carry in my heart one being “If you loose, what will you gain”? To shift your perspective from negative to positive and turn the issue into a lesson is huge for the insight and soul. Mac was a coach of life. Every issue in life has a lesson and he guided you to learn how to become a better person.
I will miss Mac dearly. He was truly a grandfather to me. I thank GOD and my angels for the time that I had and all the love I received. Mac is one of my heroes, a legend in fencing, the best husband, greatest father and an angelic soul who spread love and light to anyone that came into his circle. A portion of proceeds from my teacher program will always go to the handicap scholarship foundations that Mac and Diana created at PennState and University of Illinois. In my lifetime their legacy will always be alive. Love you Mac!!

Coach of U. of Illinois (1941-72); winner of the NCAA team championship (1956, ’58). Coach of Penn State University (1972-80). One of the principal organizers of fencing in the Midwest. Co-founder of the NFCAA (1941). President of the NFCAA. Captain of CCNY (1939).

Maxwell Garret has long been recognized as one of the country’s top fencing coaches and as one of the leading internationally ranked fencing officials. Not only was it important that his teams have winning records and capture titles, but more importantly, Coach Garret insisted that his athletes achieve academically and develop the self-discipline and character that would enable them to be successful in their future endeavors.

Maxwell (Mac) R. Garret, born Max Goldstein, was the eldest of three children of Russian born parents. He lived most of his early years in Manhattan (near Harlem) and later, in East Bronx. He received his high school education at Townsend Harris High School, a preparatory school for City College of New York, at 23rd Street and Lexington Avenue. There he played baseball, soccer, basketball, and was on the varsity fencing team (Captain from 1933-1934).

Mac attended City College of New York from 1934-1939 and received a Bachelor of Science degree in Education with a major in Physical Education. At CCNY, he was a varsity fencer and was Captain of the 1938-1939 team. After graduation, his ties to Townsend Harris remained strong as evidenced by his work as volunteer fencing coach at Townsend Harris in 1939-1940. In 1939 Mac placed second in the Intercollegiate Fencing Association (IFA) Foil Championship. He was a candidate for the 1940 U.S. Olympic Foil team, however, World War II was in progress, and no Olympic competition took place.

Mac became the Fencing Coach at the University of Illinois in 1940 and continued his graduate work there from September 1940 until March 1942 when he received his Master of Science degree. Mac’s career at Illinois was interrupted by World War II.

garretphotobyolanmills1.jpgIn 1942, Mac enlisted in the U.S. Army Air Force, graduating from Officers Candidate School in 1943. He served four years in the military. As Special Service and Information and Education Officer, Mac put together a variety show that sold a million and a half dollars in war bonds. He was honorably discharged in 1946 with the rank of Captain. Continuing in the Reserves, he retired with the rank of Major.

Mac married Diana Rosen in 1943. They had four children: Roger (1944), Roberta (1945-1984), Esther (1947), and Bruce (1951). All four children graduated from the University of Illinois. Roger was on the fencing team and was selected All American in his senior year.

After the War, the University of Illinois developed a nationally recognized wheelchair sports program. Dr. Tim Nugent, founder and director of the U of I rehabilitation program, encouraged Mac to develop the first U.S. fencing program for students with disabilities. Mac coached the first U.S. wheelchair fencing team that brought home medals from the Paralympics.

During his tenure at the University of Illinois, Mac was an Associate Professor, first in the department of Physical Education and later in Recreation and Park Administration. Mac developed the Garret Total Body Reaction Timer. This device was used in the Physical Education Research Lab for training purposes.

Mac also created innovative courses for the Recreation and Parks curriculum. For 14 years (1952-1966) he operated and directed a private summer day camp, Camp Illini, for children of families in the community. The camp served as a proving ground for Recreation and Parks majors. Mac also included children with physical disabilities in the camp program and always took pride in their accomplishments.

During his 28 years as Head Fencing Coach at the University of Illinois, the Illini won 17 Big Ten Championships, 2 NCAA Championships, and was only once ranked lower than second place in the Big Ten. To recognize his inspirational coaching and leadership, the University of Illinois fencers, their families, and alumni established the Maxwell R. Garret Fencing Scholarship in 1966.

In 1969 Mac took a year’s leave of absence from the U of I to serve as the Director of the Academy for Fencing Teachers in Israel. He was also appointed as the National Coach for the State of Israel.

In 1972 Penn State University recruited Mac as Professor of Recreation and Park Administration and as Head Fencing Coach. In 1973 Mac established the Penn State Open Fencing Tournament that became one of the most prestigious collegiate fencing tournaments in the country. Mac retired from Penn State University In 1982. During his ten years at Penn State, Mac’s teams won six conference championships and placed third in the NCAA in 1978-79. In recognition of his achievements, Penn State University fencers and their families established the Garret Fencing Scholarship. In 1982, upon his retirement, the annual Penn State Open Fencing Tournament became known as the Garret Penn State Open.

Although Mac “officially” retired in 1982, his contributions to the sport never ceased. He continued to serve as an Internationally ranked fencing official and officiated frequently at major national and international tournaments as well as circuit events. After retiring from Penn State, Mac recognized the need to encourage fencers of all ages to continue with the sport for their physical and mental well-being, especially for those 40 years of age and older. He was Chairman of the USFA

Veteran Age Fencing Program from 1982 until 1997. During this time, he organized and coordinated fencing competitions for Veterans in conjunction with local, sectional, and national tournaments. The USFA Veteran Fencing Program participated in its first international tournament with Great Britain in 1993.

In 1996 the Olympic Fencing Committee put into action Mac’s original concept to utilize uniform hand signals for referees, as suggested in an article he had written forty years prior. In Atlanta, Mac worked closely with his son Roger, who was the producer for the 1996 fencing Olympics and Paralympics. Together they put in countless hours to make the fencing tournament a success.

While manager of the U.S. Veteran Age Fencing Team at the International Tournament in Siofok, Hungary in 1999, Mac met with representatives from several countries and FIE representative, Max Gueter. They met with the International Fencing Federation (FIE) requesting that the FIE sponsor “The World Veterans Championship.” This request was granted the following year. Mac wrote or co-authored a dozen books dealing with fencing, boating, recreation, physical education and physical fitness. As former editor of the Swordmaster magazine, he published more than 45 articles in magazines and professional journals. He served as contributing editor to the Swordmaster, American Fencing and Mentor magazines. In addition, he served as a member of the editorial board of the Physical Education magazine. His latest book, Foil, Saber and Epee Fencing, was published by Penn State Press in May, 1994.

In 1989 Mac and Diana moved to Boynton Beach, Florida, where they currently live. Together they attended and assisted at many major fencing events in the United States and abroad.

Who’s Who in World Jewry, 1955.
Elected to the Helms Hall of Fame for Fencing, 1956.
Who’s Who of American Jewish Athletes, 1958.
Assistant U.S. Olympic Fencing Coach, Rome, Italy, 1960.
Fencing Coach of the Year, 1962 and 1965.
Service Award from the Athletic Institute 1969.
Director of the Academy for Fencing Teachers in Israel 1969-1970.
National Fencing Coach for the State of Israel 1969-1970.
Head Fencing Coach for Israel at World Championships, Ankara, Turkey, 1970.
U.S. Head Fencing Coach at World University Games, Torino, Italy, 1970.
U.S. Fencing Coach, Junior World Championships, South Bend, IN, 1971.
International Fencing Official, 9th Maccabiah Games in Israel 1973.
U.S. Fencing Coach and member of organizing committee for Andrei Spitzer Memorial (Under 19) Tournament in Israel, 1973.
Inducted into the City College of New York Athletic Hall of Fame, 1974.
U.S. Head Fencing Coach, Maccabiah Games in Israel, 1977 and 1981.
Member of U.S. Olympic Fencing Committee, 1982.
Member of the U.S. Fencing Association Board of Directors, 1982.
Manager of the U.S. National Sports Festival, Colorado Springs, CO, 1983.
Manager of the U.S. Fencing Team, Junior World Championships, Leningrad, Russia, 1984.
Founding member and three times President of the U.S. Fencing Coaches Association, 1950-1952, 1962-1963, and 1982-1984.
Former Editor of the U.S. Fencing Coaches Association Swordmaster magazine.
Internationally ranked fencing official at major national tournaments, circuit events, and Pennsylvania, Georgia, and Florida State Games.
As Emeritus Fencing Master, examined candidates for accreditation as Fencing Instructors, Prevosts, and Masters.
Chairman of U.S. Fencing Association Veteran Age Fencing Program,1982 – 1997.
Commissioner for Fencing, Florida Sunshine State Games, West Palm Beach, 1992.
Co-Chair Organizing Committee, U.S. National Championships, Ft Myers, FL, 1993.
Organizer and Chief of Mission, International Senior Age Tournament, England, 1994.
Advisor to the Florida International University Fencing Club, 1995-1997.
Hosted International Veteran Age Competition at St. Petersburg Beach, FL, 1995.
Chef de Mission for the U.S. Veteran Age Team, Kassel, Germany, 1996.
Organizing Committee, World Masters Games and Acting Captain, U.S. Veteran Age Team vs. Germany, Oregon,1998.
Outstanding Achievement Award from USFCA, July 1998.


Never blame GOD


People of sorts have blamed GOD for everything since the beginning of time. Whether they were an awesome soul or troubled one, so many have sent negative thoughts and energy towards the one source that has always loved them. Like a parent who sometimes hears the child’s words of disgust, GOD also feels the pain when you take away your love from him.

I myself do not judge others for anything and I believe GOD will not judge you either for feeling your pain. I think he would try to have your team of angels continuously give you signs and messages showing you the truth. The truth is that GOD will always love you even if you are the worst soul that has ever lived and that he is always trying to guide you to your destiny.

People who have experienced unimaginable loses and events in their life sometimes blame GOD for not saving or stopping an event. If this is you, please listen with an open soul. That pain is from holding onto the love you have for that person and think that love is gone with the person. The attachment to the soul and energy binds our emotions. When something leaves us on this plane and realm, we feel it. We feel the emptiness. We feel alone. All we want is that energy to be in our lives again. But it never left our energy. Just like we can connect with GOD, we can always connect with loved ones who are in Heaven.

Love does not end. If someone you loved travel around the world to another country, would they stop feeling your love? If someone who goes to Heaven, they are actually closer to your soul. They may even be in your team of guardian angels and are now apart of your soul.

Some events that occur like loosing a job or watching a great soul get the worst luck sometimes gives GOD the blame. But what if that person lost the job so they can be in another place to receive a better opportunity? What if that great soul with the worst luck needed to push and push for their dreams to finally achieve it. Now they can help motivate others.

We come into this world with out any knowledge. We learn everything we know but their is not one person who knows every truth. All we have is opinions, experiences and perspectives to give us our views on life, and GOD. There are recipes of life. Each ingredient changes the outcome of life. A vegetable can be boiled, fried, breaded, juiced, so many different ways. Each way causes a certain flavor and outcome. It is the same with us and our choices. Every choice we make it changes the recipe of our lives and others. We have the choice of it being positive or negative.

Truth, perspectives, religious views, environment, so many things determine each of our thoughts and perspectives. I don’t think their are two souls who ever lived that have the same tastes, views, outlook, perspective and energy. Each soul is designed to reach their destined path in life. It is our choices and view that determines if we ever reach the goal and if we have our eyes open during the way to see the signs and messages that are guiding us. GOD and the angels do not make decisions for us. They can not prevent the will of man.

If I decided to take drugs and hurt someone, that is not GOD’s fault. That is my energy and karma. If we did not have free will and choice, we would all be robots. Many stories of fallen angels and they knew GOD existed. They were in his light. Imagine some souls who never realized GOD. People make bad choices and decisions all the time even knowing GOD exists.

If a guy decides to make more money instead of doing the right thing and exposes chemicals to a river causing cancer, that is free will. He will have to pay for what he did some how some way. That is not GOD’s fault. That river may effect an unborn child who never saw this earth yet. As unfair as it may seem, it was that guy who decided profit over ethics. But there is always positive from negative. Maybe that unborn child grows up to develop a special filter to trap those chemicals? So many possibilities but one should never be to blame GOD.

I pray for GOD every night! I pray that more people find him. I pray that more people love him and are able to see his beauty and artistic artwork in every flower and animal. I pray that more people love GOD and no one blames him.

So how can you tell what is meant to be or the will of man?

Do everything soulfully right in life.How does this action feel? Follow your soul and never hurt anyone. Let the natural love shine from your heart and look to help others in whatever way you can from holding a door to donating time. When you are in that direction, you will be on your destined path of life. Your destiny will come to you and you will have the best timing that can only be described as Divine timing. In that energy, what ever “goes bad” is all meant to be for a reason.

We never know the reasons for GOD’s plan until we get to Heaven. May points in my life came chapters of darkness that I did not deserve. They all turned out to be blessings in disguise and much more positive insight came from the darkest hour. But in each hour, my faith in GOD NEVER was turned away or made into something negative. I never thought why me.

Follow your heart, love and forgive everyone with no judgments, do good deeds and most important, tell GOD that you love him everyday. Twice a day. Three times a day. Tell him as much as you would want to hear it from GOD.

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The Oxford English Dictionary defines forgiveness as ‘to grant free pardon and to give up all claim on account of an offence or debt’. In most contexts, forgiveness is granted without any expectation of restorative justice, and without any response on the part of the offender.

No one on earth has ever had a perfect life. Everyone has made mistakes on all levels, sometimes causing pain to others. Whether the act was intentional or just by careless thinking, those actions caused a negative feeling and event. The recipe for that action from all the choices and decisions made was basically not in the best soulful direction.

Now that event caused you pain, you are reminded of the hurt because you are allowing it to stay. The pain comes when the wound is fresh, but you can loose a limp if you let it develop into an infection. Yes there are countless recipes and severities to this perspective but it all comes down to how strong is your soul to allow only love inside your energy. How much desire do you have to really want a peaceful and happy life. What you choose to allow inside your heart becomes who you are. If you keep every bitter moment of a relationship in your heart, you will in return be bitter. You will have such a huge wall for future relationships to climb that you will never be happy and always be insecure that someone is going to hurt you again. This is all from forgiveness. Forgiveness of others and yourself.

Every relationship teaches us a insight for our soul. Relationships with family, friends, life partners or just a stranger in the street, teaches us where what lessons need to be in our lives at that moment. Everyone is your lesson. Forgiveness for these lessons are crucial otherwise you will never receive the insight You can have an awesome marriage and relationship for it to end bitterly. Instead of both souls focusing on the happy miracles they shared together, it focuses on the pain, the negative and it is only to give back the same pain inflicted. This cycle could continue indefinitely or until one gives up. But why? Why allow negative events to consume your thoughts, energy, actions and soul. In this bitter divorce case, the children are being effected, spending countless hours talking and feeling the negative events of the marriage, majority of thoughts and words are about this subject and you are living in a negative energy. But you are allowing it to effect you.

You do not have to fight. You do not have to inflict revenge. You do not have to allow this negative energy to consume your soul. How can your soul achieve its destined path when you are stopping it. How can it shine with love and light when you cover it with a blanket of ill will.

Negativity causes good feelings of a rush but only last a short while. This is because when you do something negative to another, you take a piece of that persons energy. Think of two kids and one made fun of the other and the whole class laughed. The jokester took a piece of the other kids energy. That moment made him feel tall and especially when the class laughed. The other kid felt a piece taken away from him. He felt the negative emotion of embarrassment. Felt that alone feeling. Eventually the jokester moves on cause he can not hold onto that split second moment of the energy taking. The other kid eventually regains his strength and composer then moves on.

Forgiveness stops this negative cycle from continuing. No matter what it is, even if someone murdered your love one, you have to let it go. Forgiveness begins with not holding judgment. We are not GOD, only GOD judges. Everyone faces their own energy and actions whether here or or after here. See the person and the action. Forgive that person for causing you that pain. Forgive them for taking your energy in a negative way. Forgive them for not being the love that they were made with. Most importantly, forgive them because you only fill your heart with happy positive loving energy. Light is always brighter then darkness. Shine!

When you forgive from the heart, you allow more of an opening to receive positive energy. Law of attraction is the energy you have and surround yourself with. If your living a negative life, more negative energy and events are surrounding you. If your living a happy positive life, you will be surrounded by a loving carefree life filled with miracles and divine guidance.

When you forgive others in your heart, you will forgive yourself for all your mistakes. If you feel really bad about something you did, then go create some beautiful happy moments to make up for it. Do as many good deeds as it takes until your guilt is released. Keep your heart pure with positive energy and forgive anyone who has hurt your soul. Pain is not in forgiving but in holding onto the event.

I send out my prayer of intention for any soul to forgive me if I have wronged or hurt them in any way, from the past, currently or in the future. I forgive anyone who has hurt me in my life. The more love and light we fill ourselves up with, the more love and miracles we will share with each other. This is one way we change the world.


Warning signs


Passover represents so many miracles on so many scales and levels. From Moses freeing the people of Israel to Jesus rising from the dead. Regardless of your belief, this holiday represents GOD, miracles, angels, freedom, sacrifices, resurrections, life and so much more. I want to share a personal miracle that happened while I lived in Philadelphia about 13 years ago at this same time. This miracle is still so fresh in my thoughts that I can place my energy there in that moment and feel the divine presence.

It was a icy snow storm which started around noon. It was really cold and windy and night started to fall, the ice began to freeze. The city actually closed the main highways including sections of I-95 because it was that dangerous. No one was allowed to drive. You could literally slide on the ice right outside your door.

I was in my apartment which was on the second floor. My place was on a main avenue that was a business district which included bars and restaurants. My door was plexiglass with metal frame. You needed a key to get in and a key to get out. At night I would lock the door and take the key to prevent anyone trying to open the door. This is Philadelphia 😉 As you come up the steps, you could go straight into the dining room and kitchen. From the top of the steps to the door of the dining room was about 15-12 feet. The door leading into the dining room had a shoe rack attached to the door. The rack was held by two hooks that were at the top of the door. It had my shoes and sneakers on it. Yes, this was not a formal dining room. To the left of the steps was a bedroom. If you went all the way to the left, a bathroom and a front bedroom.

I was in my front room which had windows facing the avenue. My two friends along with my cat Gemini were all watching tv. I got up to go to the kitchen and this is when the miracle took place. From my point of view, I could see the hallway, banister, top of steps, shoe rack and door to dining room. The first step I took outside of my door I saw this void. It was a black shadow but in physical form. It was about 3 feet wide and two feet tall and zoomed down the hallway. Imagine taken a piece of space and putting it on the floor, this is what I saw. This void did not go up and down, it stayed the same course, straight, low to ground and fast. As it went through the door into the dining room, away from me, it hit the shoe rack at the bottom, knocking one side of the door. Now the show rack is swinging from side to side scraping against the door.


My first reaction was to jump on something high to get my feet off the ground but I was paralyzed in my space. It felt like a long moment of stillness. I heard ringing on my ears and just felt like I was not there. Just to be clear, I was not drinking, smoking or anything else. I was completely sober. As I am replaying everything in my head of whatI just witnessed, I felt reality starting to set back in. Remember I only took one step outside my room.

I did not want to go into that room and follow the void alone for sure. Furthermore, I wanted to make sure it was not my cat. When I turned around, both my friends and my cat were on the couch. I told them what just happened and they stood up to see that the shoe rack was still swinging. We all slowly checked each room like the ghostbusters and were baffled. How could my friends explain the shoe rack swinging when they saw me only take one step outside the door? I was 40 feet from that door. Both hooks were still perfect on the door rack and I put it back up.

I questioned myself over and over but I did not find a large animal or anything that could logically explain what I witnessed. The void was the size of a medium dog but not as tall and it didn’t go up and down only sideways. After we all prayed because we did not know what happened, I called my tai chi teacher at the time since he was teaching me about energy and chi. He told me that no matter what I do, DO NOT leave my house. It was a warning and sign. I did not have any plans to go out and it was after 11pm anyway. Both of my friends walked home and I sat in my room thinking. What would you be thinking? I am sure your thoughts passed my mind at the time also. I sat in silence and just tried to connect to GOD. I was scared. I never seen anything like that and although I did not feel negative vibes I was just unsure of the sign. Did I do something wrong? Was something bad going to happen to me? This is before I started connecting with my angels so I just kept telling GOD how much I loved him.

About an hour goes by after my friends leave and I am still wide awake and scared but still connecting to GOD. Then a loud knock happen on my plexiglass door and the loud vibrations scared me and I jumped…lol… into a self defense pose on my back from the floor. Ok…lol..it was more like me on my back with my feet in the air while holding my hands over my eyes. I am just glad I already went through puberty so I was able to have a deep toned scream. My angels definitely laughed their wings off.

I ran down to the door and seen a close relative. This relative was like a brother, someone who I loved and looked up to. We will call him Superman. Superman was outside and mumbling his words. Superman must have eaten kryptonite OR have been at the bar for awhile. I have never seen someone so inebriated and still be able to stand let alone on that ice. Then BAM, it hit me. The warning was to protect superman. I told him to wait there and I ran back upstairs to get my keys so I could let him in. I was maybe 25 seconds max. When I came down, he was gone. I opened the door and he was not on the avenue anywhere. No cars were on the road on even parked on the ave. It felt like everyone disappeared. I ran around the corner and then I saw him a block away coming out of an alley.

??????? is exactly what I was thinking. If I ran upstairs and ran downstairs and ran to the corner, how could superman make it a block away on ice and being so mangled. And mangled is the right word for his energy. Did I really see him at my door? I yelled his name and he slowly stumbled and swayed until I reached him. I held his arm tight and walked superman back to my car. I took him home even though the conditions were horrible. He had a family and I knew they could care for him the best. I drove under 10 mph and helped undress and tuck him in. He was mumbling so many things before I left but I knew I love you man was somewhere in there.

There is no doubt in my mind that what I saw was something not of this plane or reality. I was given an opportunity to help and like superman always does, I accepted the good deed with open arms and love. It is about being aware to signs and message because we see them all the time. Ironically, I thought of this miracle while I was watching the bible series on the History channel. All of my blogs are about my own personal lessons, experiences and insight I have learned and witnessed. Everyone has witnessed miracles but only some acknowledge that it was just that, a miracle. Look at the logical side of events but also feel the spiritual side.

Today superman is married and has children. He could of froze to death, fell and split his head, there are so many thoughts that cross my mind. I am so THANKFUL to GOD and my angels for allowing me that responsibility to help. My life is about helping in whatever way I can. Just remember, no kryptonite on icy days.